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|  okay, like wow, talk about OVER a year of not writing in this thing.
so where am i at? does anyone even still read this?
well, I turned 20 in july. notateenanymore. ew.
and yea, my boyfriend threw me a suprise party . don't get mad if you weren't invited, I didn't even know about it. hence the suprise part.. duh.
but yea, it was cool , the decorations were mardi gras and i had a billion beads on.
so yea. well as you read, i have a bf. we've been together since may of 2006.. so we're going on our 2 years 05/08. time has flown by. i swear, it's like at a blink of an eye. but it's been good. loves it
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i work at a credit union in bakerksfield.. been here for over a year. it's been a fun experience, but im looking for something else now... well just a diffrent institution to work in.. or a different position within the credit union. too much DRAMA here. but i've been keeping to myself and to some coworker/friends that i've gotten close to.
BLAH. so how is everyone? it's boring at work today. it's dead. no one comes here anymore. so i just sit at my desk browsing. WiKiPEDiA is my fav. you can find ANYTHING on that.
did anyone else hear about flavor of love 3? i think they're in the process of doing auditions.. it's probably going to air right after i LOVE NEW YORK. haha i love her, she cracks my shit.
but yea, it feels weird to blog. it's been such a long time.. i used to blog like everyday.. anxiously waiting for your comments. jerks. but now i don't care. (you better leave lots of comments.)
school is starting once again!
my sched:
Tuesday- Human Sexuality
Wednesday- Philosophy
Thursday- Art
Online- Health
easy stuff. so far school hasn't been so hard. yet again, i haven't taken 4 classes at once. but im almost DONE at BC.
next year i'll be at CAL State working strictlly on my credentials. -HOT- haha. 
EH. im getting bored of this. ttyl! love ya b. | | |
| Mel says that she's the one that ever updates her xanga, and thet all the ugly people are taking up space on myspace, thus making it slower... Well, I said the ugly part. Anyways, its true! All you ugly people need to get off myspace because no one cares about you and your pics will never get commented on so don't post buletins saying "new pics! Comment for comment!" like its some fucken trade off. If anyone wants to leave you a comment, they will, so chill nukkas.
Anyhooters...
So I have this friend who was,lets say for the sake of understanding, talking to a person in persuit to start dating them. My friend is bored of the person because they never do anything excitng or fun and the talks always end in,"when am I gonna see you? I haven't seen you in __ days"...or at midnight sometimes, the person calls saying "lets hang out"....cause u know there's tons of things to do at 12am! Right? Just the two of them....my friend still wants to be friends with the person but doesn't know how to break off any romatic bonds they have started, because the person seems to really like my friend.
Yea..there's more:
So my friend recentlly started talking to another person who my friend happens to be falling for...but the catch is, person no1 doesn't know about person no2, but person1 aand person2 know eachother,and are not fond of eachother.
Do you think its wrong for my friend to persue something with person2? I mean, my friend and person1 aren't an item...whataya think.
Ps. Indentities are being kepped to a min because if either of these people still check their xanga, I'm def getting a phonecall.
Haha
Alright, break's over..time to go back to work nukkas!
Peace out. A town. Too root too root. :whisper: usher, usher. | | |
| Does anyone even read this anymore? This will probably end up being copy pasted onto myspace.
Life is sweet right now. Or so it seems. But in my reality, even though its now 2006, life has only achieved a stage of bitter sweet.
I am having fun doing whatever I want.. Spontaneous activities...parties, school, the gym..etc. I've started off the year without the significance of another. And for the past years, its just been that.
Commitment is hard. Love is hard.
But the cup of tea remains the same bitter sweetness, specially if a sweet fruit is added. But this is forbidden fruit from a forbidden tree that temptaion has led me to. But I can't help it. The chemestry, the connection, the whatever you want to call it is too strong.
Whywhywhy I always ask myself. Everyday I do. Its hard to come to terms with the truth and what is infront of my eyes. Its hard to admit it to myself and to others. Its hard to live the forbidden life. Its hard to deny temptation.
I see others so happy. And as a spectator, I want to be happy too, just like the subjects that I observe. And I want to be okay. And to be okay with it...carefree of negativity and its evils. But the truth is, I can be happy. I can be okay, I've seen it and see it still with other subjects.
When will I let myself be happy? | | |
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| work out your own salvation with fear and trembling
Philippians 2:12
thats gonna be my new phone by the end of this month.
<3 fuck you if you think paris hilton is ugly, i didint ask you.
october 23 will be my and myspaces 2nd year anniversaire . i cant remember how to spell it in english so i spelled it in francais.
so like.. college... is like blah. its borinteresting. my three online classes start next week and im not excited about that because it just means mo' work.
semester ends in like the beg. of december....so its rolling up soon....besides i only go to school tuesdays and thursdays.
my life like it did last summer, is shifting gears again, this time i am looking foward to the new and to the change. and i can't wait.
oh, im moving to port huneme in ventura in january.
why? mar9 asked me the same thing...and this is what i told him:
1) the school (ventura>taft) its more liberal, less conservative...and more diverse
2)i cant go to a csu or uc because i fucked up sophomore year
3)since i cant go to csu's or uc's, i cant dorm
4)i want to expirience a dorm type situation
5) there are community colleges that do student housing, however theyre all up north, and i want to go more south then i already am (closer to glendale and LA)
6)beachfront appartment $250/month with a fucken awesome friend!
7)college will be closer to home like 15 minutes as oposed to 45, meaning i will be taking more classes and feeling like im accomplishing something
8)i can transfer both my jobs
9) i really need to leave bakersfield before i go nuts
20 minutes closer to the motherland, in a better city, in a more independant situation, in a better school and oh yea, beachfront.
its so worth it.
oh bgd! its comming! this year which blew by so fast, is also about to end. dang. it really went by so fast..feels like i JUST started college.
but i'll MOSDEF be at bgd. dont doubt that shiet. | | |
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